Like Dead Flowers

I just stopped believing in happy endings and safe harbors I could find. After all, love is an emotion that calls for everything I am not. I’ve gotten so good at shooting down any emotion this tired world can bring that my mind is full of screaming hyperactive flaws. I just want to lie down because the colors from these inconvenient fireworks hurt my eyes and only remind me of the failed love than began last summer in the field of blue flowers.
So I returned to the scene of the crime.
The color of tranquility and intellect and healing found on the soft petals. I plucked a single stem with a snap. It felt cool and wet against my fingertips, slightly sticky to the touch from the chlorophyll. To me, this symbolized many things, including the man I loved when he asked me to marry him in this very spot.
But, of course, the world is full of charming devils with silver tongues. He was a liar.
The fight we had with the sharp words splintering the night, he said, “You’ll never be what I need.”
I replied, “But, oh, how I could make you bleed!”
Since then, I’ve known the border lines we drew between us and keep far on my side of the battlefield. But when I find myself dreaming about the past, I return and pick a blue flower to lay it down somewhere to die. When its wilted petals are brown and crackle like the sound of his dry, sarcastic wit, I feel more at ease. I know that this love is forever gone, but I’m not that kind and at least that was my life.
But you had to come along, didn’t you? Where do I go when every “no” turns into “maybe”? So what do I do with this sudden burst of sunlight, catching me with my umbrella when I think about the time I used to share with him? This cross-indexes every weatherman’s report.
I think it’s time for winter to well up so I can stop coming back to needlessly pick flowers. I think it’s time for me to heal. 

"Byron in our Day"

In the article, “Byron in our Day”, composed by the Discovers Authors in 2003, it explains the relation between Byron and the poem, “Don Juan” written by Byron, himself. In the article it speaks of how many different emotions are reviled in the poem. It also says how “Don Juan” was the poem at which Byron was able to find himself. It was also in the poems, “Childe Harold”, “Manfred”, and “Cain” where it is said Byron was able to mature from. “Don Juan” was the first poem where Byron truly reviled his maturity. In the article it states, “When Byron discovered himself in “Don Juan”, his mind had matured, his way of life had become more wholesome, his technical ability had reached its height; what was of particular importance, he had learned to write more slowly and with greater patience; his daily stint was two octaves of “Don Juan”.” Byron was mainly a man who loved to be wild and go to parties. Many of his poems focus on love, sex, and drugs for the theme. For many people in modern time it’s the same. People today’s main priority have turned into living life to the fullest including doing things that affect their lives negatively. For Byron life seemed boring and he wanted to spice things up. People could tell Byron’s way of life through his poem. Also, in the article it states, “Byron’s view of life was, after all essentially moral. He was deeply and sincerely interested in the moral aspect of things; only, he laid the stress elsewhere than on the conventional morality of his day. That conventional morality-often a mere matter of appearances-he stigmatized as can‘t; he hated that can‘t. not comically, at bottom, but earnestly, savagely; and he assailed it with furious blows, shocked it without mercy or caution.”  it continues on staying, “ There is no doubting his sincerity when he cries out in his letters, “It is the most moral of poems,” his contempt is as genuine as it is bitter, when he says to the British nation,- “You’re not a moral people and you know it, Without the need of too sincere a poet”.”
What I read this article as, was Byron’s way of trying to reach out to the people and make them see that there is more to life than parties, sex, and drugs. After he was able to discover himself in “Don Juan” he opened his eyes to the real world. The poem “Don Juan” is about a man who lives a rough life and in the end he makes it through. Byron compares it to his own life because he too lived a rough life. I really enjoyed this article. Some of the vocabulary was tough to understand, but after looking up the words the article made more sense. When I first read the article it did not make much sense at all, disregarding the vocabulary. At first it seemed to be about ho Byron was writing the poem, “Don Juan” about his own life, after reading it a few more times and looking into it a little deeper I realized that it wasn’t about Byron, it was just the poem that helped Byron realize that there is more to life. The very first sentence in the article is, “It was in “Don Juan” that [Byron] found himself…”, but then later in the article is says, “The scheme of the poem was such as to allow him to deploy all his powers”. I read this sentence as Byron letting all of his life experiences out on paper and allowing himself to look back on his life and to see all the things that have went wrong in his past. Then, after reading the poem, it was clear that the poem wasn’t his life, it was just a rougher life than his own. He lived on the edge, then realizing that he could lose everything he’s ever loved most likely scared him. I enjoyed this article once I understood its meaning and the moral behind it. Byron’s life story is confusing because most of his life was secret, but once his secrets were reviled his poems and the article of his life become more clear.

Community Blog; "Lord Byron"

         The blog group “Lord Byron” has a very good point when they bring up how Bryon could be argued as a sexual magnet or a hero. Many of Bryon’s poems that, were not published, are bases off of sexual things in life for both females and males, but the question is could his poems have helped the human species? Bryon was able to relate to both men and women, considering how he was attracted to both genders, causing him to have the ability to show two different sides of him. He has his more manly side where he was able to show men how to soften up and let a women feel loved and beautiful. In the poem “She Walks in Beauty”, it is telling how beautiful this girl is to him and how she can be compared to all the beautiful things in nature. This poem can be a good way to help males realize that women are not just people in a room; they can be as gorgeous as anything. It also could help a woman’s self-esteem. For example, poems such as this one by Lord Byron, can remind woman that they are beautiful and not only what men make them out to be. For this generation people need to be reminded of poems such as this one. 

       The blog created by this group did a really good job in going past just the poems written by Byron and pointing things out in his life that greatly affected his writing. There is more to Byron than his poems and not everyone is able to understand his point of view. This blog group did a great job on being able to bring to view all of the key facts in Byron’s life. I really enjoyed reading the blog posted by Danielle Henery about the personal life of Lord Byron. She did a great job in identifying Byron’s secret life that only Byron’s close friends knew about. All together the blog group did wonderful work on describing Byron’s life’s work and his own personal affairs.